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Part Time Slave Contract

Evolution of Our Relationship

Isn’t it such a romantic thing, the masochist signing the sadist’s contract, knowing the long, painful road which now lies inevitable ahead of him? We flirted with this idea before and you will see my entry on it if you can be bothered to go back in the archives. (Spoiler: The idea fell flat on it’s face) But this time we are both much more experienced.

The night one week before my departure date, I had what I considered to be a divine thought - bringing back the idea of a contract between us that could help to add some structure to our interactions, a kind of format or scheme in which the pain, attention and punishment could be placed.

Some of my fantasies involve pre-defined conventions. For example, a building with male slaves and human doormats / waste disposal. The house rules naturally involve lots of degradation at the hands (and feet!) of the females, me being one of them. This has so many variations, it’s inexhaustible.

Other fantasies involve abandonment, leaving him in mild discomfort for an undisclosed (but carefully plotted) length of time. Whippings for the sake of degradation and with some controlled brutality. It would be cool if there was a reason for these to happen. It will be my job to make sure that our arrangement as agreed to and designed by both of us, will go as planned.

You have no idea how uplifting this idea was. Finally I think I have enough experience to pull it off, and I’m getting more confident in general these days. I put the idea to pet as he sat on the floor in the deepest slave trance I’d seen that visit (due to a resurgence of sexual desire and therefore masochism, the two are directly proportional by his experience).

He was visibly getting turned on, and I don’t just mean an erection. He’d turned into a creature of sorts and the contract will hopefully help me to get him there as much as possible (be my creature). Problem is, erotic involvement is the bane of creating a realistic contract, so we are going to have to be very careful not to get caught up in that!

Naturally pet loved the idea and inbetween throwing his soul and tongue into my lower extremity he thought of loads of good ideas, as did I :)

I thought this was a beautiful way to end our visit, with this idea that we can work on while we are apart, using that time to finetune it. Nice to have something positive to look forwards to when you face the loss of parting (and it really did hit me like a ton of bricks).

Wish us luck, because we both stand to gain a lot of we get it right, but with the wrong choices, it will fail spectacularly!

Comments

It would be cool if there was a reason for these to happen.

Ransacking my filthy dreams:

I used to imagine being “abused” because I was slavish. It was all “deserved.” (Couldn’t get into it being because of my gender or the like.)

I used to imagine during my first time with someone they would suddenly slap me in the face and ask me if I knew why they did it. Their explanation was just because they could.

And I used to imagine being told how much fun it was to see my suffer (um, like when you laugh some nights - whew!).

And there are always the petty rules and protocols.

I like those, pet. Especially the former. Of course these days we have your “male creature” status but I’ve wanted something that more directly resembled ruthless abuse, and that pretence is mighty appealing :)

All you have to do is say something like male creature and I just melt into goo :)

Male Creature!

watches you melt

Waiting for when you are back home and can watch me drip down to the floor and form a puddle under your boots.

Reading these comments, you two are so adorable. I wish you the best of luck!

Yes, really just jumping in to add my agreement to May’s sentiment here.

I also love seeing you both post on similar issues. The perspectives make for great reading.

Antiphonal posting as it were always makes me exceedingly happy. I hope we’ll be doing more of it.

Thankyou both maymay and Eileen for your kind words.

It’s so nice when people connect in some way to my writing.

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Alexandra