The Best Things in Life are Free
• Evolution of Our Relationship
Yesterday I went to London to a private health clinic, and I have finally been prescribed hormones and been empowered with a list of non-misleading, realistic information. I think the NHS’s policy of pulling the wool over your eyes and trying to confuse you into not wanting to persue gender treatment is stifling for those of us for whom being feminine is not some fad, fashion statement or behavioral artifact.
Money talks. But not the loudest!
When I got home I had another suprise waiting for me. Richard told me he is ready to bolster his submission to me by trying, as I understood it, to serve me more than his penis. I don’t want to trivialize this - he’s a man and this is no small matter.
I have recently expressed interest in limited chastity as a way of improving his focus, and in the back of my mind I have to admit I’ve been wondering if at times, the fantasies were in fact bigger than I was in his mind. I feel that’s a little unfair since men are yanked by their penises and, given that this is a long distance relationship, it compounds the problem tenfold when I am not physically in his life, making his gift that much more special.
I couldn’t have forced this out of him no matter how much I wanted it. It is asif I’ve been handed a proverbial collar and it couldn’t have come at a better time :)
I would like to expand on this very soon. It is certainly important that there is no ‘pressure cooker’ effect and sexually Richard is still vulnerable to a degree so I am still thinking about the implications. He also realizes that this is much less about my ego than it may seem to some people :)
But right now I’m so proud of my pet I just want to lavish praise onto him!
Comments
It suddenly just seemed the right thing to do.
And I’ve just sat here for five minutes trying to elaborate.
Maybe my love for you and need to please you has put the fantasies in their proper place. What I have with you is beautiful and more enriching than my crazed scenarios could ever be.
I feel very aroused by the very idea of being chivalrous or submissive. I don’t want to diminish that by wanking. And even after a self-induced orgasm that need for you reasserts itself and still leaves me with longing. But happy longing.
Honestly I didn’t anticipate how pleased you would be. That leaves me even happier.
Posted by: Richard | February 3, 2006 8:20 PM