Crush Fetishes - Even Less Talked About Than Scat?
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I have both a crush and a trample fetish, which I see as inherently interlinked. The crush fetish came first, and it was caused partly by the fact that when I was young, I thought insects were just like people but tiny and icky and with six legs. Naturally if you are casually observing one from this mindset and somebody accidentally or deliberately steps on one (or if it is crushed in some other way), it’s upsetting.
I also remember one of my first disturbing experiences with crushing which I think cemented my fetish, was when I was sitting in primary school having a story read to me. It was Roald Dahl’s “The Witches”. This may have been the moment that perverted me the most. In the story (and I do like to follow a good story so I was currently engrossed) everything was going fine until a boy was caught by one of the witches and turned into a slug, so that he would be stepped on by his mother as she came to collect him at school. I was so nauseated at this thought that I almost threw up, but I kept thinking about it for quite a while afterwards and there was something about it I found ‘interesting’.
My experience with women’s shoes, feet and legs before that was one of comfort and security (being on the floor around my mother’s legs as a toddler etc.), so the realization that comfort could turn into destruction was a huge shift. I became saddened whenever I or anybody else stepped on bugs (I would only do it by accident), but had a strange background fascination all the same. Later on I began to fantasize about being crushed either as a bug or some other worthless object - this ties in with my very low self-esteem at the time, though I’m sure it’s possible to have these fantasies without low self-esteem; It was just that in my case they were somehow intertwined.
By the time I was 20 and had rid myself of a lot of psychological problems I returned once more to this subject, which I had earlier decided to forbid myself to do anything other than avoid. I began to allow my hangups to dissolve, I began squishing bugs when it was appropriate (I generally don’t go out of my way to do it unless they are a nuisance), and also started privately crushing objects such as fruit for fun, sometimes on webcam.
I began to search online for men who enjoyed the fantasy of being crushed - the excitement and helplessness in the shadow of beauty, the paradox of being destroyed by the object of your desires, the anticipation which can go on for perhaps an hour… these are all things which will drive people to fantasize that they are in some way an inanimate object or a bug. The domme side of the equation is the power you feel, a crush top will enjoy feeling the object crumble or squish under her power and the sight of the destruction which is delicious - the rest is simply feeding off of the sub, knowing what he’s thinking and how he feels, and toying with him artfully but with utter ease.
I found plenty of crush fiends out there, but most were practically demanding that I did X Y and Z for them on the webcam and while they were amazed at my knowledge and skill within the fetish, I was not amazed by them, as a whole. There were a couple of places where more intelligent crush freaks hung out and that was where I met some people with whom I could talk to about this rather ridiculous but fun fetish.
My ‘crush life’ these days pretty much consists of crushing food for my slave to eat - which I find very exciting and I drag it out and make it as dramatic as possible, stepping on pests which invade our house (mainly flies which fall to the floor after being Raid-ed, though the other day I got to step on a giant roach which had become stuck to fly paper and was still alive. It was a mercy killing, your honor, honest!), and crushing some garbage such as boxes before it gets thrown away.
My take on the fetish these days is that it can be very fun or very dark, but never a bad thing provided that you take the right attitude with it and don’t let it become an obsession, as it does with many people.
I am interested in making some videos of myself crushing fruit and other objects. I love an audience… Would anybody out there be interested in that? If you have this fetish or know somebody with it I would love to hear about it!
Later I would like to talk about crushing’s sister fetish, trampling (and no, I’m not referring to little tramps either!).
Comments
I have had a crush fetish for as long as I can remember. I think it started with me seeing little girls my age stepping on worms and caterpillars. I love pumps on a woman and seeing crush in pumps, oh boy.
Posted by: Robert | August 2, 2005 4:36 AM
Yes. Crush freaks are everywhere. It’s just usually not something people will shout from the rooftops… Though it seems to filter through in some parts of culture and humour, etc…
Posted by: Alexandra | August 4, 2005 12:03 AM
I also have a crush and trample fetish. It’s a big part of me. I can’t go a day without thinking about it. I wish people were more open about it. All this time I felt I was the only one until I came across the internet and seen it on many websites. Then I read some where if you have any fetish, no matter how crazy it is there are many others that share the smae interests.
Posted by: Sammy | January 5, 2006 6:09 AM