Awakening
• Headspaces
It is almost asif this part of me has woken from a deep slumber. Although we were making a lot of good progress before my departure, I kind of cope by being away by sort of blocking it out and not thinking about it.
I have been thinking a lot about making pet go into chastity while I am away, and allowing him to masturbate only on my say-so, often forcing him to look at my shoes (the only problem is that I don’t have many shoes or boots here, something which can be corrected) as he does so.
I would probably keep this up for a short-ish while at first and then increase the duration when I come back to it.
Causing pain has also re-entered my mind. Pain for the sake of causing it, being enjoyed by a masochist is such an appealing idea both to watch or experience. And I keep thinking of the purple heart-shaped crop that I told Richard to buy at the beginning of our relationship, and how it feels in my hand, when it cuts through the air and lands against my pet’s skin…
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“Pain for the sake of causing it, being enjoyed by a masochist is such an appealing idea … “
When I feel that part of you I am so deeply stirred that I can’t think of a proper way to express my feelings.
I’m so glad that you understand even if I can’t find the words.
Posted by: Richard | January 20, 2006 12:14 AM