Fetishes and Frustration
• Headspaces
It was my idea to watch the documentary ‘Fetishes’ last night. We’d seen it a long time ago but thought it would be fun again.
“Are you sure you’ll be OK watching it knowing we can’t play?” pet asks.
“Sure!”
Sure my ass. It was fun watching it, I got turned on and felt a bit Dommy (?!), and we both noticed how much of a dork the journalist guy was about the whole thing, but by the end, after watching all that fun stuff - particularly the bondage, whipping and flogging, I was gagging (no pun intended) to just do something hardcore!
Pretty funny if you step back a bit, though I had to take something to help me sleep that night and today I woke up in a bit of a mood.
Last night I had a very telling dream about walking in the snow. My boots were covered in snow and I was looking for pet to ask him to lick it off, but I couldn’t find him. I searched everywhere and in the end the snow melted and I was crying. Very touching, eh? ;)
My emotional response towards D/s has certainly increased in the past months. I only pray that my writing ability is able to keep up with it to at least somewhat capture it! I still haven’t collared him yet and the thought brought water to my eyes the other day while I was alone in bed. Some of you may never have experienced tears of joy yet and you’re in for a treat when you do.
We watched ‘The Devil Wears Prada’, too. Pretty funny film though neither of us really wanted the lead girl to get back with normal old Nate. It was just so predictable and talk about a typical ‘wholesome’ ending! rolleyes