Causing Pain - Finding the Edge

Archive: Inner Growth

The other night I wanted to push the envelope a little, to give my hungry slave a taste of extreme pain. I’m still finding the thin line I wish to tread, and will always be careful until I find it and know it reasonably well… That is the only way for me.

That said, I dished out plenty of heel torture, then moved on to the floggers and friends. I started using the stiletto heels of my boots to rub, poke, scrape, and crush every part of my slave’s body I considered sane. In particular I enjoyed squeezing a nipple between two heels, then slowly pushing in harder and harder, hearing the effect on his breathing and voice, feeling the available space narrow down to almost nothing… Lifting my legs I saw, in place of a nipple, a deep heel mark - it stayed deformed like that for a good while and became painful to even the lightest touch.

The session was not all about my boots, though I do think they are the most wonderful of all sex toys. I bound his hands with wrist cuffs and tied his back legs together with bondage rope - which was a very sensual feeling (I want to get into rope bondage some more), and, with him bent over the couch, delivered a firework display of flogging, caning and whipping until my body was wet with sweat and god knows what else.

For the record I think I effectively used just about every whip, cane and flogger we have that night, bar one or two (we have a LOT!). I’m getting very confident with my aim on the single-tail bullwhip and it’s fast becoming my favourite thing apart from shoes and boots. I even used the sjambok on his butt for a short while, and used the lighter floggers on his shoulders.

Certainly a fun way to exercise!

I have said before that causing my slave pain turns me on like a slow-motion orgasm (no further description needed), but I also seem to be facing a challenge. Richard is one hell of a masochist. After we had ‘come down’ from the session he told me I came close to breaking him down and making him beg and/or cry. I need this honest information from him so we can do more edge play, and it was thrilling to hear.