Promising Strangers
• People
When I ‘came out’ on the online domination scene I began talking to a lot of new people. More than one guy proposed that I should trample him to death, which was highly amusing at the time (it’s just droll now), many timewasters did what they do best - they wasted my time, but there were one or two more interesting characters.
One French guy had become infatuated with me after I sent him my picture and spoke with him briefly, and immediately wrote up and emailed me a contract in which I would be his mistress and own all of his possessions.
He proposed that I should fly out to France and while I was partly charmed by his submissive mannerisms, I told him that I wanted to see the ‘other’ side to his personality. He sent me prose and pictures of himself and he was quite attractive. We talked about his life, and a bit about my life.. But never did he show me anything beyond submission.. Apart from the fact that he was loaded and I would have a luxurious lifestyle.
From what I could gather, his ex was very dominant and perhaps a little crazy (not that that’s a bad thing!), since she often took him ‘walkies’ in public places, even when the shop owner was trying to kick them out. When I asked why he was so besotted with me, he said it was because most girls are only interested in dominance as a way to please their man, whereas he felt that I was the real deal. I really don’t think I would have been experienced enough for a 24/7 D/s relationship, but he offered to send me to a special Domme School to help me tune into my dominant side.
Either way, the lack of any kind of sense of humour or psychic pulse outside of D/s was offputting so I never made the trip to France. The guy said he was going to wait for me like a discarded object but after a couple of months I think he got bored of that since his name hardly ever appears on my buddy list any more. Perhaps I should send him a message one of the rare times I do see him and ask how he’s doing and if he ever found anyone.
Some of you are probably thinking I was crazy, turning down a nice lifestyle (considering the guy was not lying) and a life of total dominance; but my biggest fear of starting off on that journey was fear of loneliness.
Comments
I totally agree to what you said. If i’d be at that place, i would do the same i think.
To me, submissiveness is a part of the nature, and if i cant even keep up a conversation with a sub out of scene, then its not worth getting long-term into it. As a female i have my emotional attachments and soft sides, that needs good response.
Anywyas, first time here. Like what i read. Great going. Keep it up!
AconitE
Posted by: AconitE | September 7, 2005 8:58 AM
Thanks for the kind words! Yeah, he was a decent enough guy, but he really didn’t show enough different personality traits for me to be able to take his offer. Maybe they were there but didn’t convey themselves well over the internet.
Posted by: Alexandra | September 7, 2005 3:56 PM