Gender Wars - Sissy Men, Transsexuals, and 'Dominant' Women
• Sexuality and Gender
You know, there are all these men who want to be femme and want to be punished for it and as you should all know it does nothing for me. I don’t have a problem, if that’s your fetish, but remember - beyond the world of fetishes is the world of realities. In reality, steps towards femininity in a male can only be a good thing. What harm can come, other than that repulsive, male-centric belief that it’s somehow shameful for a male to be feminine?
It makes me wonder how many of these ‘pitiful sissy maids and whimpering pussy boys’ that certain breeds of dominatrix like to humiliate have some kind of transgendered component which is not only legitimate but is also being punished and having the negative conditioning strengthened.
Before I became sexually powerful and aware, I was distressed by my gender dysphoria. You’d be suprised at how being born into the wrong body can tie you up in knots in allsorts of ways. Being bullied by a woman would have turned me on simply because they have the one thing I wanted (the status of being a woman) and I had an element of jealosy.
In fact recently a lady therapist asked if I was jealous of her because she was a woman and had my name (Alexandra). I just laughed and said no, I was over those feelings, because why would I want to be at the mercy of people (the majority of whom don’t give a flying fuck about myself)… Of course this counted against me. It’s almost asif I’m /expected/ to be weak and pitiful, to fit into the stereotype. A few gay men I went out with thought “girly boy” meant I like having my hair pulled (and they were so confident in this they neglected to /ask/ my consent). Maybe my psychiatrist was just another one of those idiots who wants to play stupid sex-games without my consent? There are so many people who REALLY are perverted and yet completely normal in terms of kink/vanilla. It’s amazing!
Anyway, what I am saying is, when I hear about “girls who like to humiliate sissy boys” - especially when they use wording involving the word “deserve”, it sets alarm bells off. Obviously it’s just a form of gender play like race play or any other roleplaying. But how can you be sure?
Do money-making dominatrixes emotionally vet their subs? Or do they just do it and move onto the next like a conveyor belt? Society has for too long held the belief that male to female tendencies are ‘weak’ and ‘wrong’ - anyone cashing in on this for their own profit without making sure they are treading on emotionally sound ground is just another brick in the wall that one day should be rightfully smashed to pieces.
Had I missed my calling entirely, I would still be in a cess-pool of self-loathing, unconfident and trapped in the wrong body, full of self hate and a feeling of not belonging - alienation. The last trensgender person to live where I do threw herself off of a cliff. She died in vain because I still take flak for being a feminine male almost every time I step out the door. I try not to let it anger me but…