Transition Point
• Sexuality and Gender
It seems that after nearly a year of hormones and slightly less on anti-androgens, I have crossed the point at which feminization outweighs everything else and tips people’s perception from “feminine male” to “female”.
My breasts have gotten larger, and though they have a way to go, their presence really helps. Now that they aren’t sore for much of the time like when they first started growing, I can explore how fantastic they feel! I had no idea that I would enjoy them this much, not just their sensuality but how they affect my overall shape.
This is not so much about passing, or getting less hassle from people in day-to-day life; in a way the hassle made me stronger and forced me to not be an emotional wuss. Passing is not the goal, but obviously I inherently enjoy being read as female because it’s a huge relief to finally be myself!
In a way I feel like the hardest part is over. My body hair has been tamed and I can get away with shaving arms and legs once a week (as opposed to once every two or three days) without bristling, itching or discomfort.
The women I’ve met so far have also been very encouraging and reassuring and most seem to accept me as one of them.
Comments
I am so happy for you. :) So happy for you.
You go, girl!
hugs, E
Posted by: Elizabeth | August 8, 2007 12:17 AM
Thanks E :)
I’m really proud!
Posted by: Alexandra | August 8, 2007 1:39 AM
You are all girl / woman to me my beloved. And I’m so happy that your journey is continuing to go so well.
Posted by: Richard | August 8, 2007 2:05 AM
I was going to ask if you’ve also gotten worse with driving directions and parallel parking, but we all know that I would never stoop that low to get a cheap laugh.
Posted by: Tom Allen | August 9, 2007 3:53 AM
Thankfully the hormones aren’t that effective. :)
Posted by: Alexandra | August 9, 2007 10:09 AM
Your post reminded me of this joke:
A group of guys and one girl are sitting together at a ball game. During the game the guys notice that the girl knows just as much about the game as they do, and they’re really impressed. After the game they ask her “how is it that you know so much about baseball?”
She says, “Well, I used to be a guy and got a sex change.” The guys are amazed, but very curious about the process.
“What was the most painful part of the process? Was it when they cut off your penis?”
“That was very painful, but was not the most painful part.”
“Was it when they cut off your balls?”
“That was very painful, but was not the most painful part.”
“What was the most painful part?”
“The part that hurt the most was when they… cut my salary in half!”
Posted by: Tom Allen | August 9, 2007 6:22 PM
Ouch! Lol… It makes a point!
Posted by: Alexandra | August 9, 2007 6:34 PM
You are beautiful in so many ways, Alexandra, and I am certainly proud to know you and consider you a friend.
None of us can possibly imagine the strength and courage it takes to “be yourself” when the world insists on so many labels and boxes, despite evidence to the contrary.
I send you my love.
xo, Angela
Posted by: Angela St. Lawrence | August 13, 2007 7:21 PM
It’s nice to hear Alexandra, you followed your dream.
chance
Posted by: chance | August 15, 2007 3:01 PM
Thank-you both :)
I think what makes it easier for me is that I have no choice, it’s literally do or die.
Posted by: Alexandra | August 19, 2007 8:04 PM